Stressing Out

Of course I have the normal adrenaline, nervousness, and anticipation of the chance that we will have a son next week, but I'm getting very sad and stressed about leaving my other babies here.  The original plan was to leave Boogie here with Pasture so she could go to preschool.  She has been looking forward to it for many months, and I hate for her to miss out.  Since Monkey is home schooled, I anticipated taking her with me and we could read and do work at the hospital.  I found out that the hospital does not allow children under 12 years old in the NICU.  So we had to figure out other arrangements.

At first, I thought maybe different people could trade places and stay with me to watch her in Florida.  But that would be a lot of work to arrange, and I'm not sure I could find someone to cover everyday.  So it seems like the only clear option is to put Monkey in public school.  And I thank God that He has worked it out so it will be the easiest transition possible for her.  She already knows at least five other kids in her grade that go to the school.  She has visited the school a lot because she took after school piano lessons there last fall.  Her aunt works there, and two of her cousins will be there.  It is an amazing school with a great family atmosphere.  We also have several families in our church that's kids go there and could help with pick up if necessary.  I couldn't ask for a better situation.  However, I'm still very sad.  I'm sad like any mom when her child goes to Kindergarten.  This will be her first time at "real school" as she calls it.  I won't be there for open house.  I won't be there for her first day.  She's super sensitive and often worries a lot, I'm praying that she won't completely freak out her first day.  Right now she is super excited and I pray that attitude continues.  My heart is the same for Boogie, although knowing her personality, she will be fine.  I will miss her preschool open house and her first day of preschool.  But with her, we have met her teacher several times, and we have been to the school a lot because Monkey went there.  And because we we've know for over year that Boogie would be going to this preschool, it has been much easier to deal with.

Please pray for my girls that they will adjust fine to the different lifestyle, and with their mommy being gone. (Monkey cried tonight because she doesn't want me to go).  Pray for me as I stay strong so they'll be strong and trust that all will be ok.  Pray for Pasture as he will take on the responsibility of being a single working dad, missing his wife, and wishing he could be there for the baby.  A big thanks to all of those who I know will step in to help take care of my girls and pray for us!!